I can’t say for certain, but I’m pretty sure I spent many a Valentine in my bedroom, listening to Depeche Mode over and over again, eating the chocolates my mom and dad gave me. I’m not Anti-Valentine’s Day—in fact, I’m very pro-pink and red and white candy heart sappiness—but I do wish I didn’t put […]

I know I have a tendency to make things sound and look pretty. To tie everything in a nice, neat bow. Perfect little packages. But that’s not life. Life is sometimes ugly and messy, stressful and crazed. Wedding planning can be overwhelming. Working from home can get lonely. Transitions, like the ones I am going […]

When people ask me how the wedding plans are coming along all I can think to say is “Slowly but surely.” There are so many things to do, but I can only do so many at a time. So I take it bit by bit, one slow thing at a time. I go to a […]

I’ve been feeling kind of badass lately, knocking things off my to-do list, cleaning up my act and space, getting organized, even staying up past midnight. Even a total moment of creative crisis late last night somehow fueled me to keep going. I don’t know where this energy, motivation and confidence is coming from, but […]

the scavenger hunt Over the weekend, Rama and I got roped into a lunchtime party at a Chinese restaurant. The food was great, but we didn’t know that many people and we were preoccupied with all the to-do’s we weren’t checking off our list. In my MSG-comatose state, I leaned over to Rama and whispered, […]

In the past month, four dear friends have given birth to baby girls, and each event has filled me with wonder and awe. I keep thinking about them, about their tiny fingers and toes, about their smiling eyes and pink lips, and I wonder what they’ll grow up to be. Will they be blondes or […]

We shared so many stories, dreams and lessons, but the one that rings loudest in my ears is Trust. I hold so tightly to the way I want things to fit, work, act, react and behave, that I don’t just let it be. Why is that? Why is it so hard for me to trust […]

Where do I even begin? When my art supplies and dirty clothes and precious gifts are in a pile by the door, when I miss the music and dancing, the laughter and crying, the sharing and understanding, when I just want to hear the voices one more time saying “Me too” and “I have been […]

the little tree Merry holidays, everyone. It’s almost midnight, my room is a disaster and I need to pack for a roadtrip. Rama, his brother Henry and I leave for Texas tomorrow, and we don’t come back until the 1st of the year. I’m looking forward to the drive, and the cheery hugs hello, and […]

When I was a little girl, “thirty” sounded ancient and mysterious. So did getting married and having a checking account and driving your very own car wherever you want. It must be amazing, I thought, to be all grown up! I couldn’t imagine life getting any better than that and I certainly couldn’t imagine getting […]