my life has often felt like an after-school TV special, a Lifetime movie, a painfully bad sitcom, and yes, okay, even a cartoon. right now, though, it feels like an episode of Unsolved Mysteries. marvelous coincidences and bittersweet moments that make absolutely no sense whatsoever. so, i just sit here and i follow all the […]

this weekend, i did not once think about you, obsess about my appearance or wish i were somewhere else. i did go to disneyland, take cabs to get around town, and jump up and down to some damn good rock & roll. surprises, everywhere. like when you suddenly realize that somebody else is watching you, […]

i really love when the leaves rustling in the wind sounds just like rain. i convince myself that there is some sort of storm, look outside my window and see debris dancing on the driveway, instead. * circling around the reservoir on monday night, the windows rolled down and the nighttime air drifting inside, and […]

the lady with pink pants and i are on some kind of schedule. i ran into her three times today in the bathroom, and each time it was exactly the same. i’d enter the middle bathroom stall, look to my right and see the salmon slacks bunched up over the brown loafers. i’d hear the […]

oh, they are so right. it really does feel so long ago. i still remember telling my mom how excited i was to go to texas for the first time ever to meet these people whose work i respected and learn about this medium with which i was falling in love. i was on fire, […]

i don’t know everything. in fact, i’m certain i don’t know much and have a lot to learn, but there are some things that i know for certain: i have amazing people in my life. i am at my best when i am with them and when i am doing things for other people. i […]

i know there is a lot to say, but right now i just want to know how i could possibly have missed all that was right in front of my eyes. sometimes, maybe, i see it but just pretend it’s not there.

mom was surprised, and i couldn’t stop taking pictures of her 100-watt smile. one by one her friends came up to greet her and when tita linda came up, they kept hugging and laughing and shrieking and hugging again. tears filled my mom’s eyes, and i got teary-eyed, too. i was pacing and shaking. so […]

coffee, pancakes and mushroom omelettes, followed by a drive by the ocean. picnics on the sand. deep breaths held for ten seconds. oh, my legs are so pale. i watched squirrels dart in and out of a flower bed on the cliff, and i imagined what it must be like to have rows of flowers […]

sooner or later you just have to laugh because there is a big, gaping hole in your living room ceiling and you don’t know where it leads. this morning, you woke up and heard raindrops and you started to get excited to wear your new raincoat, but when you looked out the window the pavement […]