i am learning the difference between confidence and delusion.
confidence: yes, i can do it.
delusion: yes, i can do it all.
i have been fooling myself into believing that i can be everything for everyone. i have been forgetting what i need to be for myself.
i feel awkward and ridiculous. i feel worried for the women in my life whose health is failing, whose hope is draining. i feel tired all the time. i feel like i will never catch up.
but catch up to what? what am i even chasing?
this weekend, i am turning off my ibook and i’m not turning it on until monday morning. maybe without all the noise filling my head i will remember what my own voice sounds like.