frankly, i’m a little overwhelmed.
it’s almost as if i have been hiding behind this project for so long and now that it’s done i don’t know what to do with myself.
i am faced with everyone’s expectations of me combined with my own expectations of me, when what i really wish i could stare straight in the eyes is what i want. what, as sabrina says, brings me the most joy.
i am so good at seeing details, at embracing that which makes a moment, at falling in love with the tiniest thing, but i don’t know what it is that would bring me a sustained happiness. a peace.
when i find it, if i find it, i wonder if everything really will fall into place, like they say it will. but that almost sounds too easy.