i am, of course, okay. the shaky feeling has subsided, and my car window is shiny new. everyone rushed to my rescue today, in thoughts and words and action, and i am so grateful i know so many beautiful people. (you know who you are, i hope. i’ve told you once but if i need […]

there is broken glass everywhere, and i don’t even know how to begin to clean it up. i want to pretend it is not there. i want to crawl back into bed and wake up at 7:30 like i do every other day. i want it to be every other day. somebody broke into my […]

my mouth is a tea cup and i’ve got a string dangling out of the corner of my mouth. but that’s what the instructions said, right? yes. i read them at least five times, and clearly it said: “if there is excessive bleeding after a period of six hours, place a dry tea bag on […]

sometimes, i wonder how loud the mouse clicks really are. can you hear them in the bathroom if the water is running? or in the dining room if you are on the phone? what about outside while taking out the trash? can you hear me? does it matter? oh, my room is getting cold, again. […]

is it, we ask ourselves, a blessing or a curse to pay such close attention to detail and be able to let our imaginations run wild?

sometimes, i’m afraid i talk more about doing good than actually doing it. i have so many grandiose plans about how to change the world, but i spend my days getting paid a better than decent salary and my nights doing whatever pleases me. i look at others with critical eyes and don’t hesitate to […]

the other night was the first time living in LA i’ve ever thought to myself, “i could really use a scarf right now.” seriously. forty-five degrees. it was that cold. inside, my feet are wrapped in wool socks and my bed is a mess of every blanket i own. by the time i reach the […]

i was sitting indian-style on the floor when kid in candy started and my heavy spirits were lifted to the dim ceiling. all of a sudden, i was back in portland, sitting under blue skies. i was in a record store, sifting through discs with dawnie. i was laughing on the porch, taking sips of […]

i know i’m getting old because today i hemmed my pants with a thread and needle, not the stapler i’d normally use. by the second leg, i was stitching so quickly i had a flash of my mother sitting on her bed and handing over the pants she’d hemmed for me. “there, all done.” this […]

already, this autumn is so much better than the last, and i am so happy. my brother is in town and my toenails are pink and the leaves on the sidewalk go crunchcrunch as i walk to my car. for my birthday (a celebration that is going to last four days, it seems) i have […]