my grandmother is in the hospital, again, and all of a sudden this website seems like the stupidest thing, ever.

i have been reading my horoscope religiously and looking for answers in road signs. but tonight, while listening to a sad and beautiful song, i realized that maybe i’m looking for something that doesn’t exist. an arrow pointing somewhere, to some thing. something. maybe there are no signs and all the little coincidences that pop […]

we snuck out with a bag of popcorn and i felt like holly golightly in breakfast at tiffany’s, that scene where she and fred walk out of the five-and-dime wearing cat & dog masks they just swiped—all giddy. i got home, salt on my lips and stars in my stomach, and stumbled over a pile […]

“do you want to dance with me?” he mumbled, teetering on his own two feet. “i’m not a very good dancer,” i said. “i get really offended when people say no,” he frowned. “i’m sorry.” he clumsily spun around once and then propped himself up against my table. “so, do you want to dance?” “no.”

my aunt jinxed me when she told me to drive safely, so i got on the freeway going the wrong direction. i was already late, so this just made my heart beat and palms sweat even more. when i finally got to the club, rosie was already singing and i took deep breaths until the […]

it was a dinner torn out of martha stewart living. the sun was setting, the perrier was chilling and the pasta was boiling. tables were set in the backyard with red floral china, napkin rings that looked like fresh berries and vases with a single rose bud. i kept notes with my eyes so that […]

boy #1: “you seem sweet and lovable on your site, but in person you’re mean and loveable.” boy #2: “no, you’re just mean.”

i have rediscovered red, red wine, snuck flip-flops into my daily wardrobe and developed a deep, undying love for ponytails. that, and i’m reading like a fiend and drinking at least six glasses of water a day. it’s doing wonders for my skin, as well as my brain whose gears had gone rusty by reading […]

somewhere in las vegas there is a young man with one less pair of flannel boxers in his closet, a hotel maintenance man cursing the brightly colored feathers clogging up the industrial vacuum, and a bartender who learned to make a new cocktail thanks to the expertise of some ladies who came by on a […]

now that it’s practically summer, you may see me lathering on the sunscreen, lounging on a beach chair and watching the sun rise and fall, just like i am doing in the image above, sketched from a photograph taken about 20 years ago. i’m not much for suntanning — i’ve been blessed with brown filipino […]