leaving on a jetplane

March 27, 2008

I have written it in email over and over again, and I’ve said it to a few friends, but I still can’t make sense of the words: My grandmother is very sick, and I am leaving on a last-minute trip to the Philippines tomorrow morning.

What do I know?

That I am so grateful to have a husband who is here for me. I am so out of sorts as it is, I can’t imagine how lost I’d feel without him.

That I will miss him while I’m gone. It will be the longest we’ve been apart since getting married nearly 2 years ago, and it’s not just the other side of the country. It’s oceans and time zones away, and there’s no email.

That I am glad I can be there for my mom, even though I have no idea what to say to her when we speak.

That I am sad. Just really, really, really sad. Even though I know all the wise and beautiful things people say about life and death–and I believe in God and heaven and that things all happen for a reason–I am still sad. (And I know that is okay that I am.)

Please send your thoughts and prayers to my grandma, my family and myself. We need–and so appreciate–them.

See you in 2 weeks, dear friends. xo


  1. mandy says:

    Sorry to hear about this Christine. Thinking of you.

  2. Fran says:

    Oh, Christine, my thoughts are with you.

  3. rebecca says:

    I’m sorry I missed your call last night – and I’m so sorry to hear this news…we will hang with mr. H while you are away and keep you in our hearts and thoughts (as always)…

  4. Julie says:

    I’m sorry to hear you have to go through this tough situation. My thoughts are with you and your family.

  5. lisaann says:

    i’m so sorry to hear this, c. hugs to you and all the castros. xox

  6. rama says:

    (((((( ))))))

  7. pallavi says:

    Many good thoughts to you and your family, Christine.

  8. Cat says:

    Have a safe trip and take care of yourself.

  9. stella says:

    christine, i am so sorry. i’m glad you are there with your mother and grandmother, and everyone. i am thinking of you and your family. xo always.

  10. mary catherine says:

    peaceful thoughts to you guys…xo

  11. jen gray says:

    prayers and love to you….

  12. lisa s says:

    hi sweet christine…
    am thinking of you.
    know exactly what this feels like….

    hope it is going ok…

  13. muck says:

    (((HUGS)))) i know how you feel because my stepdad isn’t doing so well either… prayers for them…

  14. rama says:

    paalam, grandma.

  15. tracy says:

    oh honey! i send you all the good vibes I can possibly conjure up! good luck and best wishes to you and your family! many hugs

  16. maria says:

    been thinking of you and your grandmother. sending prayers and good thoughts.

  17. kim says:

    oh, i am so sorry! my love + prayers to you and your whole family. and especially your grandma.

  18. francesca says:

    christine i am so sorry to hear about this- you and your family are all in my prayers and thoughts.
    much love to you…

  19. keri says:

    i am thinking of you my dear. sending lots and lots of love and healing to you and your dear grandma.

    love you,

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