i forgot to count how many meteors i saw, but i know at one point they were shooting across the sky every five seconds. as soon as i breathed, “five one thousand,” another flash of light came streaking across the blackness. i forgot to make a wish. i forgot a lot of things. but it […]

i got to chinatown earlier than i thought i would and parked on the street, and on my way to the restaurant, three old men growled at me in a language i didn’t know. i wanted to yell back, in their native tongue, “haven’t you ever seen a girl in a skirt before?” but i […]

i just expended my last ounce of energy dancing to “don’t go breakin’ my heart” in my parked car, one house down from mine. and then i tripped, twice, on my way to the bathroom. now i am lying in bed, where i can do no more harm. (pretty soon, i’m certain i’ll pass out.) […]

i think i fell asleep for five minutes, sometime during won’t get to heaven, when the lights were flashing purple white orange red, when everything was such a blur that i decided to close my eyes, instead. i wonder if anyone noticed, but i doubt it, because the whole theater seemed to be in a […]

the party didn’t really end until 2pm today, after joel put away his guitar, claudine stopped singing and i set down my imaginary tamborine. i met back up with them at 11 and we practically ran to cj’s pantry, where we’d had breakfast just weeks before. “that girl is wearing the same jeans she wore […]

there will be an interesection of people, places and things tonight: cocktails swirling and bottles clanking and voices carrying from room to room to room. i can already hear the conversations in my head (how do you know so-and-so, what do you do, where do you live?) and smell the alcohol on my breath. i […]

i’ve got paint on my fingertips and shards of paper on my lap. there are two envelopes unsealed and undelivered beside the jar of dirty water and a blurry polaroid beside that. god, i missed this. making things. making a mess. and the look on your face and the sound in your voice and the […]

i am falling apart today. slightly unraveling & fraying at the edges. my eyes are blurry, my throat is scratchy and my stomach is tumbly, and i don’t think any of the symptoms come from any one thing. in fact, i may be imagining it all.

i don’t know what else to say except it’s been so long and i can’t tell you why. this seems to be the time of the year when i get quiet, for one reason or other. i feel like keeping things to myself, lately, the way i feel and what i see and where i […]

i just want to sit around and eat candy all afternoon. fists full of candy corn and twizzlers and raisinets and skittles. did you know they sell powerpuff girls stickers in boxes like raisins? that’s almost as bad as quarters from the old man down the street. tonight we’re watching mr. leary’s funeral and opening […]