i am so achy, thanks to the magic of the gears and rails and trains that loop at lightspeed. we rode long, smooth, snakelike coasters and jumpy, shakey, rattly trains. i really do love a good roller coaster — the head spinning, arm flailing, stomach leaping thrill of it all — but i discovered i […]

the lakers won again, and ethan turned 2. there is hope, everywhere. just two years ago, we were sitting in the hospital waiting area at the edge of our seats wondering what would happen — on the court and in the room where ethan lay. he was born with an underdeveloped heart, and we did […]

i think summer struck while i was eating lunch today. when i got back into my car i could not steer with my hands. it was too hot. instead i steered, no joke, with my thigh. the denim fabric of my skirt shielded me from the heat. i pulled my knee closer to my chest […]

i was sitting on the porch of the house of blues when a man came to sit next to me. he was carrying a guitar and a briefcase. the sun was hot, it beat down on my hair and shoulders and face. i didn’t have anywhere to be. i was waiting for joel. was this […]

we got to the reception late, because mom and dad had to wait around for photos. when we finally got to the country club lounge, the food had been cleared, save a few cubes of cheese, cracker crumbs, and dirty crumpled napkins. my mom’s friends were sitting strategically beside the grand piano, the table top […]

i am waiting for the pie to arrive. it will be accompanied by the boston cream, french apple and a la mode gang, my dear and silly friends. we are going to mix cocktails, eat junk and tell stories. giggling is optional. thank you in advance for coming. if i forget to tell you, i […]

in high school, it was life goes on. carrie and i watched it religiously and compared notes the following day at the lunch benches. i cried when jesse told becka he had aids. in college, i never missed an episode of my so-called life. ricky used to watch it with me, poking fun during commercials […]

tragedy averted. she’s so cool. for lunch, i had a turkey and bacon sandwich. tonight, i drank too much coffee and watched dawson’s creek alone. dude, it’s more like boo-hoo wednesday. also: there are not so super not so secret photos from new york, if you’re interested. tragedy averted. zit happens, derek says, and he’s […]

it still catches me offguard when you tell me you’ve been reading this. there’s such a disconnect in my head from the telling of the story and the hearing of the story. somehow, i’ve convinced myself that when i write these words and i click update that it is disappears into this tiny hole that […]

when i woke up this morning, i was struck with more than the usual monday dread. yes, the sun was glaring at me and my mind was doing its usual flip-through of this week’s to-dos and there was the lingering sense that another delicious dream had come to a grinding halt. when i put on […]