the idea, like all ideas, came in a flash. no! a lightbulb, flickering above my head, on tuesday night. and then it floated — right? because ideas float —<\/i> into my head where it’s been floating ever since. until this morning, when i got one of the best letters ever from my girl ani, which convinced me that i need to do this.<\/p>\n
before my reading spot at the café, they introduced me as ‘writer and creator of maganda.org’ and i felt kind of dorky, like<\/p>\n
\n“hi, i have a website.”
\n“so what’s it about?”
\n“well, me.”\n<\/p><\/blockquote>\nand i had this sinking feeling everyone would go home thinking i had the typical homepage with pictures of my cat and a list of my stats. i wondered what they’d think of me, reading those words, after meeting me. did i seem self-centered? did i misrepresent myself? did i seem like the same girl who stood before them just hours before or was i a complete stranger?<\/p>\n
then i started to think about what i write and the layers of meaning and context and privacy and everything, like i do way too often. and i played devil’s advocate with myself for a moment and asked, “why do i do this, anyway? why do i say what i say and why do i say it to a million people? would i tell my best friend what i write here? would i write here what i’d tell my best friend? isn’t this all sort of warped and twisted and weird?”<\/i><\/p>\n
that’s when i had the idea: i am going to write letters for one week, and i am going to post them here. it’s an experiment, if you will, to see what it is i choose to tell the people in my life and whether i feel comfortable posting it to a public space. i don’t know what the goal is, except for maybe to try it. (sometimes, that is goal enough.)<\/p>\n
tomorrow, it starts.<\/p>\n
one week of letters.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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