{"id":689,"date":"2005-08-04T23:06:09","date_gmt":"2005-08-05T07:06:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=689"},"modified":"2009-07-19T00:50:34","modified_gmt":"2009-07-19T08:50:34","slug":"cmon-get-messy","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2005\/08\/04\/cmon-get-messy\/","title":{"rendered":"c&#8217;mon, get messy"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Oh man, I&#8217;m wiped out today. I&#8217;ve been working hard, and I can feel it in my eyes and my fingers and my neck. Cramps don&#8217;t help, either. Or the bloating. Or the <a href=\"alert('And I am supposed to try on wedding dresses in two weeks? Right!');\" title=\"footnote\">cravings for everything chocolate<\/a>. I am still up against one more deadline for the week, and I don&#8217;t know how I&#8217;ll get it done.<\/p>\n<p>This is me trying to write about the real stuff.<\/p>\n<p>This is me trying <i>not<\/i> to impress you.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s harder than you&#8217;d think.<\/p>\n<p>I have been doing experiments all summer in letting go, getting messy and spilling open. There&#8217;s a page in my sketchbook where I tried intentionally to write as quickly as I could; I even used a brush tip pen instead of my usual uniball. But instead of looking beautiful and messy, the page just looks sloppy and muddy. I&#8217;ve been tempted so often to just tear the page right out and pretend it never existed, and I know that&#8217;s totally ridiculous. You can&#8217;t mess up getting messy, right?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Oh man, I&#8217;m wiped out today. I&#8217;ve been working hard, and I can feel it in my eyes and my fingers and my neck. Cramps don&#8217;t help, either. Or the bloating. Or the cravings for everything chocolate. I am still up against one more deadline for the week, and I don&#8217;t know how I&#8217;ll get [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/689"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=689"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/689\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1235,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/689\/revisions\/1235"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=689"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=689"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=689"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}