{"id":50,"date":"2001-02-28T14:26:15","date_gmt":"2001-02-28T22:26:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=50"},"modified":"2009-08-15T19:21:07","modified_gmt":"2009-08-16T03:21:07","slug":"tomorrow-now-please-thanks","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2001\/02\/28\/tomorrow-now-please-thanks\/","title":{"rendered":"Tomorrow, now, please, thanks"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;i just want today to be over&#8221; is a horrible way to live. i don&#8217;t like being cranky or depressed or gloomy. i hate feeling like the only safe place i want to be is at home, in my bed, under the covers. i am tired of listening to the same moody music over and over and over again.<\/p>\n<p>but i feel nothing else.<\/p>\n<p>and i don&#8217;t mean to dump on you, i really don&#8217;t. i know when you say yeah or aww or uh-huh that you don&#8217;t know what else to say and if i were in your shoes, i wouldn&#8217;t, either. i know this will all be over, soon; i just don&#8217;t know when. i know the sun will come back out and i will be laughing too loud and i will wonder why i ever wondered whether i would survive, but until then&#8211;<\/p>\n<p>i just want today to be over.<\/p>\n<div align=\"center\">*<\/div>\n<p><!-- i shamelessly stole the footnote idea and code from andrew at holdencaulfield.com who shamelessly stole it from alison at bluishorange.com. will the thievery never end? --><br \/>\nsitting in anastasia&#8217;s before i got <a href=\"javascript:alert('today is Ash Wednesday, the first day of Lent. yes, mom. i went to mass.');\" title=\"footnote\">ashed<\/a>, i realized that it had been too long. too long since i&#8217;d sat there, within the sponge painted walls. too long since i&#8217;d written furiously in my journal, oblivious to my surroundings. too long since i&#8217;d taken a moment to stop talking and just listen.<\/p>\n<p>tonight, i am enjoying the silence. tonight, i feel peace.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;i just want today to be over&#8221; is a horrible way to live. i don&#8217;t like being cranky or depressed or gloomy. i hate feeling like the only safe place i want to be is at home, in my bed, under the covers. i am tired of listening to the same moody music over and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=50"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1292,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/50\/revisions\/1292"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=50"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=50"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=50"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}