{"id":750,"date":"2007-01-12T14:48:37","date_gmt":"2007-01-12T22:48:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=750"},"modified":"2007-01-12T14:48:37","modified_gmt":"2007-01-12T22:48:37","slug":"the-urge-to-write","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2007\/01\/12\/the-urge-to-write\/","title":{"rendered":"the urge to write"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>When Rama told me last week that he missed my writing, I told him to <a title=\"footnote\" onmouseover=\"window.status=' footnote '; return true\" href=\"javascript:alert('It did not occur to me until much later that what I had meant to say was Go cry *me* a river. Oops.');\">go cry in a river<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve been doing this online journal thing for a long time now, and I have entertained the idea of quitting several times along the way. I sometimes felt so much pressure to write and entertain and inform and inspire\u2014it was exhausting. But then a <a target=\"_new\" href=\"http:\/\/www.sabrinawardharrison.com\">friend<\/a> reminded me that I didn&#8217;t <em>have<\/em> to do this. Yes, it was a beautiful thing that I was doing, but I didn&#8217;t owe it to anyone. When I heard these words, I felt so relieved. Taking that pressure off myself made it fun, again. I could speak up when I felt the urge but stay quiet when I felt the need.<\/p>\n<p>Some people might say that I&#8217;ve gone too far the other way and kept my mouth too tightly shut the past year. Maybe so. I&#8217;ve been a busy girl.<\/p>\n<p>Now that the site has been moved over to WordPress, it feels new again. I am poring through words I wrote two, three, four, even five years ago. Some make me wince with embarrassment, others make me smile with pride. Regardless, I recognize the value and beauty in these words. And it makes me want to find a balance between living the story and writing it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When Rama told me last week that he missed my writing, I told him to go cry in a river. I&#8217;ve been doing this online journal thing for a long time now, and I have entertained the idea of quitting several times along the way. I sometimes felt so much pressure to write and entertain [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/750"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=750"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/750\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=750"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=750"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=750"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}