{"id":74,"date":"2001-04-12T13:45:00","date_gmt":"2001-04-12T21:45:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=74"},"modified":"2001-04-12T13:45:00","modified_gmt":"2001-04-12T21:45:00","slug":"always-like-this","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2001\/04\/12\/always-like-this\/","title":{"rendered":"Always like this"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>how is it that <a href=\"http:\/\/www.maganda.org\/girl\/04172000.html\" title=\"17 april 2000\">one year<\/a>, even <a href=\"http:\/\/gurlpages.com\/teeten\/04141999.html\" title=\"14 april 1999\">two<\/a>, can pass, and some things don&#8217;t seem to change? i feel like there will always be this cloud of wonder following me. i will always feel overwhelmed with questions. i will always be waiting for the next big thing.<\/p>\n<p>i thought it was something i&#8217;d outgrow, this dreamy-eyed existence, but i&#8217;m realizing that it&#8217;s just me. this is the way i am.<\/p>\n<p><i>whew.<\/i> now that we&#8217;ve got that settled, can we move on?<\/p>\n<p>no! that&#8217;s the worst part. this kind of attitude lends itself to getting lost in my own thoughts and staring off into the distance;  scribbling madly in journals such things as &#8220;i hate waiting&#8221; and &#8220;2 more weeks&#8221;; <!-- a visit from a swell boy and i am so terribly excited, i'll have you know --> making &#8220;if x then y&#8221; charts and &#8220;the pros and cons of&#8221; lists; dreaming, <i>literally dreaming<\/i> of what could be, my subconscious never ceasing to amaze me. stuck in a loop of imaginings and longings, with infinite possibility.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>how is it that one year, even two, can pass, and some things don&#8217;t seem to change? i feel like there will always be this cloud of wonder following me. i will always feel overwhelmed with questions. i will always be waiting for the next big thing. i thought it was something i&#8217;d outgrow, this [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=74"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/74\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=74"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=74"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=74"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}