{"id":300,"date":"2002-05-16T15:36:48","date_gmt":"2002-05-16T23:36:48","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=300"},"modified":"2009-08-15T22:48:28","modified_gmt":"2009-08-16T06:48:28","slug":"damn-you-google","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2002\/05\/16\/damn-you-google\/","title":{"rendered":"Damn you, Google"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>it still catches me offguard when you tell me you&#8217;ve been reading this. there&#8217;s such a disconnect in my head from the telling of the story and the hearing of the story. somehow, i&#8217;ve convinced myself that when i write these words and i click update that it is disappears into this tiny hole that only a few people can reach, when really anyone can access it and many people, including my mother, do. <a href=\"javascript:alert('despite the increasingly obvious fact that i no longer update as often as i used to, to mine and possibly your dismay');\" title=\"footnote\">daily<\/a>.<\/p>\n<p>so, your first impression of me could be my obsession with a zit or a description of a lady from her ankles down or, worse, a self-aware diatribe about how i am getting self-conscious in this medium for the umpteenth time.<\/p>\n<p>and this is the electronic equivalent of me blushing.<\/p>\n<p>sometimes i want to hide, because, if i actually stop to think about it,  the idea of exposing myself seems so outrageous on so many levels, but i can&#8217;t. i can&#8217;t hide. i could take the site down or i could speak in code, <!-- i crack me up --> but a couple of clever search strings later, and there i&#8217;d be, a click away from you.<\/p>\n<p>maybe the trick is not to think about it. maybe the black hole theory is a good one. maybe i should just pretend that you&#8217;re not here, that i am 16, alone in my bedroom, writing to the person in my head who understands why i feel the way i do and finds all my jokes funny and doesn&#8217;t drown in my streams and rivers and oceans of consciousness.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>it still catches me offguard when you tell me you&#8217;ve been reading this. there&#8217;s such a disconnect in my head from the telling of the story and the hearing of the story. somehow, i&#8217;ve convinced myself that when i write these words and i click update that it is disappears into this tiny hole that [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/300"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=300"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/300\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1327,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/300\/revisions\/1327"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=300"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=300"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=300"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}