{"id":231,"date":"2002-01-13T16:06:46","date_gmt":"2002-01-14T00:06:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=231"},"modified":"2002-01-13T16:06:46","modified_gmt":"2002-01-14T00:06:46","slug":"and-i-am-trying-so-hard-not-to-try-to-be-clever-or-cute-or-charming-here","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2002\/01\/13\/and-i-am-trying-so-hard-not-to-try-to-be-clever-or-cute-or-charming-here\/","title":{"rendered":"and i am trying so hard not to try to be clever or cute or charming, here"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>whatever you think of me, it&#8217;s wrong. i am not that brave, i am not that strong.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;how do you do it?&#8221; people ask me.<br \/>\nand i ask them back, &#8220;do what?&#8221;<br \/>\n&#8220;keep it together,&#8221; they say.<br \/>\nand then i laugh.<\/p>\n<p>because i feel like i am just unraveling slowly and soon i will fall apart.<\/p>\n<p>tonight, i am lonely and sad and scared.<\/p>\n<p>and maybe i should say that more often. maybe i should frown more, cry more, scream more. maybe i should let myself crumble and let someone else pick up the pieces for me. maybe i should admit for once that i need someone just as much as everyone else.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>whatever you think of me, it&#8217;s wrong. i am not that brave, i am not that strong. &#8220;how do you do it?&#8221; people ask me. and i ask them back, &#8220;do what?&#8221; &#8220;keep it together,&#8221; they say. and then i laugh. because i feel like i am just unraveling slowly and soon i will fall [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/231"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=231"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/231\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=231"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=231"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=231"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}