{"id":117,"date":"2001-07-09T10:53:06","date_gmt":"2001-07-09T18:53:06","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=117"},"modified":"2001-07-09T10:53:06","modified_gmt":"2001-07-09T18:53:06","slug":"my-gingerbread-walls-come-tumbling-down","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2001\/07\/09\/my-gingerbread-walls-come-tumbling-down\/","title":{"rendered":"My gingerbread walls come tumbling down"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>some people give me hope. others drain it out of me.<\/p>\n<p>i am trying to believe. i am trying to believe that people are kind and that intentions are good, but i just don&#8217;t know right now. i&#8217;m trying to believe that this is the exception to the rule and that i am getting carried away and that i will see the world in rosy colors again come morning, but i am convincing myself otherwise.<\/p>\n<p>sometimes, it doesn&#8217;t pay to be smart. you can convince yourself of anything if you try hard enough.<\/p>\n<p>and i feel so horrible about what i said last night. i didn&#8217;t mean to rain on her parade. i didn&#8217;t mean to sound like i wasn&#8217;t happy for her. but the words poured out of my mouth before i could think about what i was saying. i heard my voice echoing into the receiver, and i hardly recognized myself.<\/p>\n<p>(all my gingerbread walls come tumbling down.)<\/p>\n<p>i am trying to believe, but sometimes it seems impossible.<\/p>\n<p>and you know, it didn&#8217;t have to come to this.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>some people give me hope. others drain it out of me. i am trying to believe. i am trying to believe that people are kind and that intentions are good, but i just don&#8217;t know right now. i&#8217;m trying to believe that this is the exception to the rule and that i am getting carried [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/117"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=117"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/117\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=117"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=117"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=117"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}