{"id":103,"date":"2001-06-05T11:18:09","date_gmt":"2001-06-05T19:18:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/?p=103"},"modified":"2001-06-05T11:18:09","modified_gmt":"2001-06-05T19:18:09","slug":"escape-to-new-york","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/2001\/06\/05\/escape-to-new-york\/","title":{"rendered":"Escape to New York"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/maganda.org\/girl\/06142000.html\" title=\"not to the exact date, but still\">a year ago<\/a>, i was plotting my escape. <!-- this also marks one year of sassy source code. woop! --> my head filled with dreams, my pants filled with ants, i was so desperate to get out. i wanted to go <a href=\"http:\/\/www.maganda.org\/girl\/06182000.html\" title=\"oh, you know\">there<\/a> at once.<\/p>\n<p>today, i find myself buying bookshelves and shoe racks and welcome mats. i am tearing out ideas from martha stewart and pad, and i&#8217;m sketching redecorating plans in my notebook. i am building a fortress around me, and i feel safe and comfortable and happy. <!--mostly. with a few exceptions.--><\/p>\n<p>i know there are some people who think i should just pack up and leave, already. some days, i feel that too. <i>you are young,<\/i> they tell me. <i>if not now, when?<\/i> honestly, i think they are trying to pursue their unfulfilled dreams through me. they don&#8217;t know that i have done things in my life that make me unable to leave just yet. <!--i have made decisions, bad ones in some cases, and now i have to deal with the consequences.--> they don&#8217;t know that i haven&#8217;t lost sight of my destination &#8212; i&#8217;m just taking the long way to get there.<\/p>\n<p>and i don&#8217;t want to run away, anymore. <!--or as i like to say, Pull a Felicity. heh.--> i don&#8217;t want to leave a neighborhood just as i&#8217;m starting to know my way around and i don&#8217;t want to leave the friends that i&#8217;m starting to cherish.<\/p>\n<p><i>be careful,<\/i> she told me, <i>you might plant roots.<\/i> and i&#8217;m starting to wonder if that would be so bad. what&#8217;s wrong with planting a seed at the bottom of the soil? i might actually get to see it grow.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>a year ago, i was plotting my escape. my head filled with dreams, my pants filled with ants, i was so desperate to get out. i wanted to go there at once. today, i find myself buying bookshelves and shoe racks and welcome mats. i am tearing out ideas from martha stewart and pad, and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103"}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=103"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/103\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=103"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=103"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/maganda.org\/wordpress\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=103"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}